Life & Christmas

So as you all know, Christmas is right around the corner and I'm quite excited.

ANDDDDD 6 days left until my 18th birthday! 

Yes, to answer your mental question, it does suck having a birthday 3 days after Christmas. But what can you do? I'm just happy that I'll be 18 before the majority of my classmates will be.

I don't have a lot to write about so I'm going to keep it short and sweet. Merry Christmas everyone! (in 3 days) 

Late - (Draft from August)

Hello writers, readers, or anyone who has managed to get to this blog somehow. I haven't written forever, so I felt that a greeting was necessary.

Why haven't I written in forever, you may ask. Well, I'd like to say that I was on an exotic journey through the Amazon rain forest, or getting a front-seat view on the wild animals in Africa, however, I wasn't doing either of those things. No, instead, I spent most of my August in British Columbia and working.

Okay, okay, so it hasn't exactly been an eventful month. British Columbia was awesome, and I saw so many beautiful things. Work is alright, too, but doesn't compare to being able to relax. I'm getting paid though, so it isn't a big deal.

School started on Wednesday, and I've been a little stressed. Yeah,  I know, it's only been 2 days, and it's not like I'm overloaded. 

Life & Success

I wrote a blog post a while back titled "Life and Rejection" where I ranted about how I had experienced some major rejections in the past year.

Well, it's not quite 2014 yet, and I wanted to write about my recent success.

I doubt anyone knows this, but I applied for the Loran Scholarship in October. I received an email about a week ago that said I was a semi-finalist and I would be getting interviewed over the phone.

And now I'm heading to Toronto in February to do in-person interviews! 

Life & The City

And what a week it has been! I went from chilling in my bedroom in my small town to heading to the city for basketball camp. In the course of 1 week I went to a Carly Rae Jepsen concert, tubing on a lake, swimming, shopping (bought a new dress!), hot tubbing and of course playing basketball. Today is my last day in the city and I have mixed feelings about going back to my small town. On the one hand, I miss my friends but on the other hand, there's always so much to do in the city!

I definitely miss my computer. I mean, make fun all you want, but that's something that I could not go without for very long. I've managed a week - but then again I have my iPhone, so it doesn't really count.

In about 4-5 days I'll be heading to B.C. for some great times as a family trip with my cousins. I'm super pumped for that :) hopefully we'll see some great sights!

I'll probably blog more when I'm not typing on this stupid, tiny iPhone keyboard. Peace out!

#FigmentCovers

Sorry guys, I needed a place to put all of my stuff for figment. 

Life & Rejection

Wow, from hands-on experience with rejection all I can say is that it sucks.

This is the third major rejection I've experienced this year. I know I shouldn't be making a big deal about it, I don't even know why I am... but it hurts. As many of you know, I got fired from my first job ever in April. If that wasn't enough, the talk with my ex didn't go over as planned and no there is no chance that anything will ever happen. And now... REJECTED from something I applied to a few months ago...

Why? I wish I knew, honestly. I hate those fucking phone calls. Those, "We're sorry, you didn't make it, but we encourage you to blah, blah blah."

Fucking, bloody hell. Why don't I have more control over this?

I wish I could just start over, sometimes. Or go back and undo some of the stupid things I've done. I know I shouldn't regrets, but, hell, I do, and I can't help them.

"One day it's here and then it's gone,
How are you still holding on?"
-One Day, Kodaline

And then, to make it even worse, my mom comes in my room and asks if everything is okay. I hate fucking crying in front of people. I feel like an idiot every time it happens. I know some people are just like, whatever, you cry, you get on with life. But fuck. I'm the only person that I can cry in front of without feeling like a complete idiot. And even when I cry I'm just thinking... stop, you're better than this. Stop crying. It's not even that big of a deal. Why are you crying?

It just sucks.

Life & How To Be A Heartbreaker

Rule number 1,
Is that you gotta have fun
But baby when you're done
You gotta be the first to run

Rule number 2,
Just don't get attached to
Somebody you could lose
So l-let me tell you

Okay, but seriously, that song is catchy.

ANYWAY, I've been working on my novel, and I've hit the 20,000 mark. (which is around 2 hours to read) so that's awesome! :)

I'm excited to write more and develop it more.

Life & Moving On

So we did end up talking last night, and I just have 2 words.

Fuck him.

I know lately I've been getting a little mushy-gushy with all this I-want-him-back bullshit, but I'm done with it. He's officially deleted from my phone, and I don't want to go into details about it, but I am proud to say that I finally told him off. 

Anyway, I'm excited to head off to basketball camp tomorrow with one of my friends. That'll be fun :) I don't have a lot to talk about today, so I guess I'll write more some other time. 

Life & Summer II

It's only been summer for a few days, and already I feel like I'm bored. I don't mean to sound ungrateful, because really, I've been waiting for these 2 months during the whole school year. It's just that... without school, I haven't got any people to see, or any places to go, or... anything to do.

Seriously. I've watched 4 movies in the past 2 days. Those include The Notebook, Aladdin, The Little Mermaid and Annie. Yeah, talk about a blast from the past.

In addition, I've still been waiting for that text from my ex that's probably never going to come. Yeah, he never was one for keeping promises or having feelings for that matter. I feel bad for saying that, because I'm the one that keeps talking to him in desperation, but it's true. I wish moving on was easy. I wish I was one of those girls that could just say 'fuck it' and move on. I thought I was, but unfortunately, I'm not. And now I find myself wishing that I could spend the summer with him. Just him and I and the summer. 

Sigh...

Sometimes I read over all these posts and just discover how much I've changed in so little time. I guess that's what it means to grow up. I never thought it would happen so fast. I mean, I'm still young, but I feel old. I feel like I've seen everything there is to see sometimes.

Nah, that isn't true. I know there's a lot I don't know and a lot of things to see. I just wish I could see them now! Maybe I should have taken advantage of those class trips, so I could go see the world instead of staying in the confines of this little town.

Oh, well.

Life & Summer

Okay, I know I say this all the time but this time it's actually true. Don't get mad, but I've kind of been forgetting to write here.

Anyway, it's finally summer!!! (It actually has been for a couple of days now, but that's besides the point) I'm not exactly 'happy' with how all of my marks turned out, but I figure there's always next year.

Yesterday, I went to a huge party for my class. I'm actually kind of tired right now because I stayed up until 5:00A.M. at that party. Yes, I know, not like me at all, right?

Everyone else was in bed and I was still up with 4 other people, just sitting around the campfire talking. 

Good times, good times.

So here I am today, writing away on this old computer that HATES me. I'm happy though, we went to West Edmonton Mall and I picked up a scrapbook for my best friend, that I'll be making throughout the summer, as well as some new clothes! :) 

So far, it's been an eventful summer. I mean, it's only Friday, and we have our last exam on Tuesday, so really it's not that 'eventful,' per-say, given that it hasn't even been summer for very long.

Ah, well.

I've already done a few things on my bucket list :) I'll do an updated progress report on that probably sometime in July.

And, for those who were wondering, my novel is coming along! I haven't worked on it as much lately as I would like to, BUT I will be working on it throughout the summer. So far it's about an hour to read, which I'm actually quite proud of.

Andddddd I should probably get my license. 

**Side Note** Am I the only one who can't STAND when people spell words incorrectly or make stupid errors? I mean, even on the internet, man. Bitches be like "Your the best." And in my head I'm thinking, You're. You're the best. You are. Not your. You're. 

I can't be the only one.

Or even when people mix up the words 'then' and 'than.' I mean, really, people? How hard is it to learn the difference? I actually saw a funny post the other day that said, "I'd rather have my son be gay then a serial killer." (No, it wasn't a joke.) And that, people, is why you need to learn the difference.

I was actually thinking maybe I should just chill today. Watch the notebook, clean my room, have a jolly good time.

I'll be back soon to write more. :) 

Life & Being A Writer

People always ask me, "What is it like to be a writer?"
Aweh, who am I kidding. No one ever asks that.

Mostly because people don't know I'm a writer. I've only told a couple of select people, because, well, mostly because I don't want people scavenging the internet and finding everything I've ever written. That would be a tad bit embarrassing, wouldn't you say?
[Haha, of course you wouldn't say. You guys never SAY anything.]

But anyways, the point of this post wasn't to rant on about how no one knows me [although no one really does, people assume I'm transparent but I'm really opaque.] No, the point of this was to write about what it's like to be a writer.

And really, it's no different from not being a writer, I'd assume. I don't really know, I've been a writer for as long as I can remember, but  can't really think of anything that would be different.

I saw this online, and I'm going to copy & paste it here:

You know you're a writer when...

-All of your friends are out at parties and you are in your room, writing alone. (I can't say this one applies to me. I'm pretty outgoing, so I'd definitely be at the party.)
-You've honed the skill of procrastination. (Definitely. I should be studying for my exams right now. Instead, I'm blogging.)
-CTR+Z is your best friend. (Yes, yes and yes. Also the backspace.)
-Writer's block is the most tragic thing to ever occur in your life. (100% agree.)
-You always make sure to use proper grammar, even in text messages. (Another one that is definitely accurate. I go as far as preaching to the people of the internet about their incorrect us of the word "then"
-You narrate in your head as you go about doing your every day things. (Doesn't completely apply, but I do like to observe real life people & their mannerisms. People definitely find that creepy, but I think it's a way of life for me.)

35 Summer Bucket List Ideas

My best friend and I just spontaneously came up with the idea to create a bucket list. We tried to think of things that don't involve a lot of money or travelling.
We decided that we are going to take AT LEAST ONE PICTURE for EVERY BUCKET LIST ITEM. Then we are going to create summer scrapbooks for each other using those photos.

Here's 35 ideas that don't involve a lot of money or anything too risky.
#CantWaitForSummer

1. Splash park at night

2. Roof Climbing

3. Random, unplanned road trip

4. Camping overnight

5. Twins for a week

6. Messy twister

7. Fireworks

8. Water balloon fight

9. Slip & Slide

10. Hit the beach

11. 24 hour Day

12. Go on a picnic

13. Hide little notes in random places

14. Make bucket list scrapbooks for each other

15. Egg Roulette

16. Lemonade Stand

17. Have everyone I talk to sign my shirt for a day

18. Movie Marathon

19. Helium balloons

20. Night swimming with glowsticks

21. Skinny dipping

22. Read the same book

23. Tie messages to balloons and let them go.

24. FREE HUGS

25. Sleep on a trampoline

26. Text “I  hid the body” to a random #

27. Prank Phone Calls

28. Sprinkler

29. Bowling

30. Chinese Fire Drill

31. Ding-Dong-Ditch

32. Silly String

33. Chalk

34. Drinking Games

35. Campfire

Life & Busy-ness

Before you correct my spelling, I just wanted to let you know that this post is not about business. 
It's about busy-ness.
As in, I'm always busy.
As in, I'm too busy.
As in, I'm really sorry I haven't had time to post.

No, but really guys, I'm been studying for exams and I've been trying to promote my new group on figment and I've been doing this and that here and there and I just haven't had a whole lot of time to blog. The point is I'm really really sorry. If anyone regularly read this blog then my sorry goes to YOU.
And thanks for taking the time to read these, no matter how inconsistent I am with these posts.

Anyway, I'm beginning to feel like I really have my life sorted out lately. I'm still trying to maintain my 4.0 GPA, and I think I'm going to pursue a career in Law.
Yess!
As in, exactly what I've always wanted.

But I'll post more about that later when I'm not so busy busy busy!

Life & Taylor Swift

Sometimes, all a girl needs is to listen to some good old fashioned songs about relationships. And yes, by that I mean Taylor Swift.
It's one of those days again, one of those days where I start thinking about my ex-boyfriend because I'm listening to Taylor Swift whine about how she wishes she could turn back time. I guess the reason I like Taylor Swift is because I can relate to how she feels. I love how she can just take a relationship and put it in a song. Most people probably wouldn't think that I would ever consider listening to Taylor Swift, but they don't know me as well as they think they do.

Ed Sheeran, as well, is one of those people. He can take a relationship and just mash it into 3 minutes of perfection. With poetic lines. And the voice of an angel.

I don't actually have a lot to write about today, I just wanted to write. I want to get more into the habit of writing here so that I can have more than just a few posts for each month. My goal is to get it to at least 15 posts in a month. That's every other day.

I want to make a summer bucket list! I just got the inspiration because I thought of last year's bucket list. Beautiful. Perhaps I'll start making one right now. :)

Life & How I Met Your Mother II

"Hi, have you met Ted?"

"This is going to be legend- wait for it - dary!"

 

"When I get sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead. True story."

"There are only two reasons to date a girl you've already dated. Breast. Implants."

"Suit up!"

Okay, but seriously, I know I already posted one of these How I Met Your Mother posts and you are all probably thinking I'm an obsessed fan but I'm just so excited for the next season of How I Met Your Mother. I saw the mother, I saw her, and Marshall and Lily are fighting because Lily wants to go away for her job but Marshall just got hired as a judge and he takes it so they're going to have to stay, because they're so in love and they can't live without each other and Ted has had Robin's necklace the whole time I mean who saw that coming right and ugh I'm just so excited and the mother was there with the yellow umbrella and Barney and Robin are going to get married and live happily ever after because they're perfect for each other and Ted and the mother will be so perfect for each other too.... 

But seriously. 

Watch it. All 8 seasons. 

Life & Basketball & Exams & Stress & Having No Friends & Ex-Boyfriends

Wow! From that title most of you can probably already tell that I am feeling just a little bit overloaded. Exams are coming up in approximately 2 weeks. (Yeah, I have 2 weeks until my first exam and I haven't even STARTED studying. Ouch!)

I kind of just keep putting all of that stuff off because really - who wants to spend hours studying? Plus I wanted to work on my novel. Not that that's priority, but it's a little more interesting than studying for a few hours. There's also basketball tonight so I'm going to go to that rather than waste my time studying stuff that I probably won't even remember.

The whole thing with having no friends is a little bit of an exaggeration. I have friends, just not ones that I really connect to. I have a couple of friends that I definitely connect with, but no one that I can fully tell everything too. 

No one.

I have been talking to my ex-boyfriend lately and he told me that he would text me at the end of the month (after he's done his 2-month course and actually has some free time)

Not the best, but at least it's something...

I told him that if he wanted me to stop pursuing this (whatever THIS is) then he should just tell me, and he didn't. So that's got to be some sort of sign that either he's thought about us being together again or he doesn't mind the idea of us being friends.

Or... he just likes the attention.

I don't really know. 

Life & My Novel

I haven't written here for a while for a few reasons:

a) I've been feeling a little under the weather for the past couple days.

b) I always forget to write here!

c) My computer has slowed down a lot and I find myself using it less and less.

Now I know that those aren't excuses, but they're what I have for now. Today, for the first time in months I started working on my novel again, after being complimented on my writing by someone who had read it on Figment. It made me unbelievably happen that someone would read my novel-in-progress without even being prompted or promised anything in return. So I decided to give the first chapter a look over, change a few things and as of now my first chapter is standing at about 2800 words. Accomplishment? I think so.

Anyways, I really would like inspiration to keep working on it. I noticed today that I have over 200 page views, and yet still no one bothers to leave a comment. I would love a comment here and there just to remind me that I'm not just writing this for me. (Although that was the purpose of starting the blog, I still would like to know that I'm not alone!)

Life & Stress

It's been an entire week since the last time I published anything from this blog.
Before you say it, I know, I know. I am ashamed of myself as well.

Today was (STRESSFUL) to say the least. And I don't mean stressful in the sense that there was a lot of pressure or anything on me. Stressful for an ENTJ is something that only another ENTJ can understand.

(Click here to find out if you are an ENTJ like me!)

For an ENTJ, stressful reaches a whole new level. It's like you woke up on the wrong side of the bed, something pissed in your cereal AND you can't do anything right. Yeah, it's that bad.

School just didn't agree with me today. I couldn't do things right, I couldn't figure out simple equations and I couldn't win arguments. (Some of you are probably thinking whatt???) But honestly, losing an argument is one of the worst things that can happen to me. Not to mention that I felt legitimately dumb with some of the questions I asked. No student should ever feel dumb while asking questions, but I did. Perhaps it's just me...

Needless to say, here I am, in a semi-good mood. I won [I guess you could say that, although it wasn't really winning, per-say] an argument. I feel alright now.

I just hope that tomorrow will be better. I don't want to stress myself out too much, after all, summer is almost here.


Summer
Is
Almost
Here

Man, those words feel so good to type. Summer. Summer. Summer

Beautiful.


[I'm not crazy, but today has been a stressful day. Don't blame me.]

Oh, and I got my mark back for a story I wrote for English. 100%!!!!
Solid.
Click here to read the story.

Life & 22 (Now 23)

Most of you probably figured out what this post is going to be about simply by looking at the title - but for those of you who didn't; this post is going to be about my blog.

So far, since I've started my blog I've written 22 posts. (This being my 23rd)
And I love this blog. I love being able to write about whatever I want here, no judgement whatsoever, and just write. Some of the big named YouTube stars pretty much do exactly what I do, except they do it on video. Unfortunately, I don't possess the talent or nerve to throw a video up on YouTube for the world to see, so here I am!

22 seems like a measly number. I don't know why, but I was hoping that the number would be more along the lines of 100. I know that that is incredibly unrealistic, but that's what I was hoping. Nevertheless, 22 is a landmark. I have written 22 different posts about my life and published them online for the world to read. This post makes that number even bigger.

A little off topic here, but I don't know if any of you guys have ever heard the app, Whisper? If you haven't, I would suggest getting it.

This is what it looks like. I know this may be kind of random, but this app has helped me a lot. Basically it just allows you to post whatever you want anonymously and see other people's anonymous posts as well. I love the idea and I'm addicted to the app. I would recommend it to anyone. And no, I'm not just being paid to say that. I actually like this app.

Life & How I Met Your Mother

Now I know that a lot of you readers probably don't know me very well, but I must tell you a couple things about me before I talk about the title.
First, I am not an avid TV watcher. I am faithful to 2 shows right now and I will occasionally watch a few others. (Those 2 shows being: The Big Bang Theory & How I Met Your Mother)
Now I just finished watched the season finale of season 8 for How I Met Your Mother (And yes, I have seen EVERY SINGLE EPISODE of this show. I am devoted)
And since there is no one I can talk to about, I just wanted to post here that I am so excited to see where the producers take season 9!
I would recommend this show to anyone who enjoys comedy and is over the age of 14.

Anyways, I was sick today so I pretty much just stayed home and slept most of the day. I have some friends coming over in a bit and we're supposed to be going on a walk. I haven't been outside all day so that might be good for me...

Coconut Oil On Hair Review

Now I know that I don't normally write about product reviews and all that jazz, but starting today I'm going to be making a few exceptions to that rule. 

So yesterday I read this post on Pinterest that said to rub coconut oil in your hair and keep it in for 20-30 minutes. I had seen this post before but had never really given it much thought. But yesterday night I decided to try it, as it claimed that it was going to make my hair feel softer and grow faster.

I was a little skeptical at first, which is why I decided to try this on a weekend, so that just in case it made my hair greasy or anything like that that I would have time to wash it all out and get my hair back to normal. I rubbed coconut oil in my hair and kept it in for about 25 minutes. Then I hopped into the shower and used Keratin Repair Shampoo & Conditioner. (I shampooed twice just to make sure I got all the oil out!)

Anyway, today when I woke up my hair felt amazing. It is so soft and beautiful right now and I'm so glad that I decided to try it. The post said to do it 3-4 times a week for the first week or two, and then start doing it 2-3 times a month.

Needless to say, I am so excited to keep doing this! My hair is about medium length right now, hitting just a couple of inches below my shoulders. 

The coconut oil worked wonders! 

Life & Blogging

I was watching a show about five minutes ago and one of the characters started talking about blogging. I realized in that moment that I hadn't blogged in days so I ran to my computer and went on to this site.

I've actually been getting some page views lately! Thank you to each and every viewer, even if I haven't even had a single comment, I still have the urge to keep writing.

I got a 95 on my English essay, in case any of you were wondering. I'm still waiting to get my short story mark, so I'll let you know when I get that one back.

It's Friday and I don't even have school today! Awesome!

So I'm sitting here on my computer at 11:08 and hoping that I can keep coming up with ideas of what to write. Normally I just wing it, just like I'm doing now.

I went to the mall yesterday with my friends and watched Iron Man 3. It was a fantastic movie, we watched it in 3D and it was very well done. I would recommend it to anyone who is a fan of superheroes. Plus we got a little sneak peak into The Avengers 2!

Life & Writing

I just realized today that even though this is a writing blog, I have never done a "Life and writing" post. I know that I covered some of the reasons why I started this blog in my introduction, but I haven't really gone into depth as to why I write.

Ever since I was younger, I have loved to write. Every English teacher I have ever had has told me that I am a good writer, I remember the first time that a teacher told me that I had writing talent was in 5th grade. My grade 6, 7, 8 and 10 teachers all said the same thing. (I had the same English teacher for grades 8 & 9 as well as 10 & 11)

Anyways, the positive encouragement that every teacher gave me really helped my writing confidence. I began to write more, just for fun, outside of school. Some of my friends think that that's weird, but I couldn't care less. To me, writing is like an escape. When I really get engrossed in an idea, I just can't stop writing. Of course, I am still learning new things all of the time about writing, but lately I have felt really confident about where I am at.

When I was younger, I considered going into a writing career, for a magazine or a publishing company, but of course, I wouldn't make that much money in those professions. Perhaps I will do it on the side.

My first novel ever was called "The Adventures of Dodger and Sasha" (Give me a break, I was 12!) The story was about a dog and a cat that run away from home and travel the world together. Of course, it wasn't the length of an average novel, and I don't think it's something that will ever be published, but it's definitely a mark in my past. Finishing that novel gave me the confidence to keep writing.

I've grown up a lot since those days, and now I write about more than dogs and cats. I love writing horror, suspense and romance. I always like to write about topics that I am passionate about, such as homosexual rights, marijuana legalization, etc.

I will never stop writing. While some people listen to music, watch movies, etc, I write to find peace. Don't get me wrong, those things are good too, but I find my place in writing.

You can check out some of my writing on Figment.com by clicking here.

Life & Ex-Boyfriends

Now, I know that I've already done a post on "Life & Boys" but this one is different. This one focuses specifically on ex-boyfriends.

After my ex and I broke up last year, I made a list of things that I didn't like about him/our relationship. Sounds harsh, I know, but that's how I dealt with my pain at the time. I tried to remember the bad things about my relationship, and focus on those, because I knew that if I remembered our relationship how it actually was, I would have came crawling back within a week. 

Now, I know what you're thinking. 'Wow... just another girl who is still in love with the idea of her ex-boyfriend.' And yes, I'll admit that he was a great guy, and our relationship was cute. But I'm not just sewn up on the idea of him, I'm sewn up on him.

This may sound like a change from everything that you've heard about going back to your ex's, but I think that I'm going to try it. I want him back, there's no denying that. We didn't break up for any specific reason, we just thought at the time that things weren't really going anywhere. I don't know why, but we ended it a little too soon.

Anyways, that's all I've been thinking about for the past week, and believe me, I've had my share of crying over it. I miss him like hell. But we've actually been talking the past couple of days, which has made me a lot happier. I want to see him again, and talk things through, and see where things go from there. 

Life & Time Management

I just realized that I haven't written in this blog since Sunday. Sorry guys, I thought that writing here was a daily habit by now, but I guess not. I guess the real reason that I haven't written in a while is just because I've been busy with a lot of stuff. Between homework, sports and guys, it gets a little difficult to find time to blog sometimes.

I think that blogging here helps me to relieve stress, so I enjoy doing it, but sometimes I just forget. Right now, I'm in the middle of writing that short story for English that I mentioned earlier, and I just remembered that I haven't blogged for a couple days, which brings me here.

There have been a couple things are new in my life. First, two of my best friends are dating (have been for a while), and they keep getting crap from everyone. I've been trying to help them sort it out with some of my other friends, and today, it was finally starting to look up.

The other new thing is that I've been talking to my ex-boyfriend lately. I don't want to reveal too much right now, because I don't want to get my hopes up by writing down everything that I've been thinking lately, but there's a possibility that we might actually be able to be friends. But more on that later.

I guess I really don't have a whole lot to talk about today. Whenever I blog, I always feel like I have a lot to talk about, but then I get here and actually start writing and then I realize that I actually don't have a lot to write about.

I'm close to getting a new job. The manager talked to me yesterday and said she'd call me back. She hasn't yet, but I've got my fingers crossed.

Life & Sundays

Today is a perfect Sunday day. The sun is shining, I had a great breakfast & now I'm feeling just great. I will be going to drop in basketball a bit later today, but for now I figure I may as well get some things done. I have an essay that's due for English, a Biology test to study for (Tuesday) and a short story (which doesn't have a due date yet, but I love to write, so I may work on it anyways)

I don't have a whole lot to write about today, basically it's just the normal. I just finished reading a book, House Of Reckoning, By John Saul.

This isn't my favorite John Saul novel, but it's definitely one that you should check out if you want a quick read. I just started reading it yesterday, and I just finished.

Out of all the John Saul books that I've ever read, I would have to say that my favorite (so far) is Perfect Nightmare. That being said, I  haven't read a whole lot of John Saul, as I've been a little too busy with my English novels to read for fun lately, but I do really enjoy John Saul's style of writing. I would also like to read some of my Stephen King novels, that have been sitting on my bookshelf, untouched for ages. Maybe I'll start one of those tonight.

Life & Bollywood

Now, I know what you're thinking, Life & Bollywood? Really, how much crazier can I get?
Well, to anyone that is reading this, I just watched an entire movie in Hindi. That's right, an entire movie where I didn't understand a single word. Instead, I just read the subtitles.
It was a great movie, by the way, and to anyone who has never seen a Bollywood movie, I would strongly recommend it. I feel like I've gained so much culture, just from watching two and a half hours of a movie that was made in India.

The movie is called "Mujhse Shaadi Karoge", which translates in English to "Will You Marry Me?"

And despite that the movie wasn't in my language, I thoroughly enjoyed it. (There's a surprise ending, beware!) If you ever have two and a half hours to kill, I would suggest watching it. 

Click here to view it for free on YouTube!









Anyways, readers, that movie isn't the only thing I have to talk about, but I just wanted to let you know how awesome it was before I continue on with how my day has been going.

I have started writing that short story that my English teacher assigned, and I'm thinking of making it a horror story. I'm not going to reveal too much about it yet, but I'll definitely post a link when it's finished.

If you guys want to see my other short story that I wrote a few months ago for English, just leave a comment and I'll post a link. (It's about a girl who lives on a 'Hitler' island, where everyone must have blonde hair and blue eyes, and everyone must be relatively the same.) I'd love to show it to you guys and get some feedback, so just let me know!

Life & Pageviews

Well, it turns out that lately I've actually been getting some page views! I have 70 overall, and 47 in the past month. Thank you viewers :)

If you are viewing this, feel free to leave a comment if you want me to write about a certain topic or if you have any thoughts on my posts. Good or bad, I'd like to hear anything you guys have to say!

Anyways, I came onto this blog today not entirely sure what to write about, so, for the most part, I am making this up as I go along.

We got assigned another short story for English, which I am super excited to write! (I love writing, for those of you who didn't get the memo)

And, another awesome thing... the weather outside has actually been decent. Now I know what you're thinking. Um aren't you from Canada? Isn't is supposed to ... like ... snow all year 'round there?

Well yeah, it pretty much does. I mean we get about 6-8 cold months every year. (This year it was October- April) And yeah, sometimes it sucks. (In fact, most of the time it sucks.)

But cold weather is really what makes the warm weather so beautiful.

I've been trying to start some sort of health plan now that the weather is actually warm. I was thinking about maybe going for a walk/run today, but I'm not entirely sure. I also need to start working out again, I'd love to get back into a routine.

Leave comments, and keep coming back! I write at least once a week!

Life & Suicide

I never understood how people could take their own lives. Their lives may be hard, but is there really something that could happen that could make a person give up living?

           

A friend of mine committed suicide. I wish that I could say that we were best friends, but we weren't  I wish that I could say that we were closer before she passed away, but all that I really remember from that time is that we never really talked. I wish that we would have.

I've written about her before, not on this blog, but I have. Today, new feelings arose. I was going through my emails. I’m 99% sure that I have slight OCD, so all my emails are arranged alphabetically into folders of the name of the person who sent them. The only emails that I delete are junk mail emails. I don’t think I've ever deleted an email from a person that I know.

Anyways, I was reading through emails and I came across some from this friend. She passed away last October, and up until today I hadn't thought about her in a while. The emails were casual, we talked about boys and having a sleepover, and I just broke down. There are tears streaming down my face as I write this.

           

Blogging helps me to find a sense of reality. I know that she’s gone now, and I can’t bring her back, no matter how much I want to. But I miss her so much.

Life & School

Normally I don't share very many secrets on the internet, as it's very risky, but this time I'm going to make an exception.
As you guys know, I love the write. I write on sites, I blog, I write in English, I write for fun. I've been writing for as long as I can remember, so writing comes very easily to me. Of course, I am always new things about writing, and I'm sure that I will be for the rest of my life. However, I finally feel as though I am at a point in my life where my writing is getting pretty damn near where I want it to be.
Anyways, a few weeks ago, we got assigned to write a short story in English. Of course, I finished mine right away and handed it in. But my teacher isn't really very strict on the deadlines, so a lot of my classmates didn't finish. After I handed mine in, one of my classmates asked me to help me out with his story.
Well, one thing lead to another and eventually he offered to pay me to write his story. (First writing gig ever!) And... I took the offer.

I just finished his story today, and I'm actually pretty proud of it. He said that he liked it, and I get a little bit of a money bonus if the mark of the story is over 80. (Which I think it will be)

Now I'm not trying to share this to brag or anything like that, but it was something that I just decided to post today.

By the way, to anyone who reads this blog regularly, I've been feeling way better these days. I still want weed, but I'm trying to control that urge. At least for now.

& Tomorrow is Friday!

Life & Drugs

Back-Story

So before I go really deep into the whole drugs thing, I just want to give you readers a little bit of a back-story as to why I'm writing about drugs.

Let me just start off by saying that I am pro-marijuana legalization. I think that marijuana would help the economy, and that it isn't as bad for you as some of the other (legal) drugs out there -like alcohol!

Anyways, yesterday was a really hard day for me. I'm not sure what made exactly made it hard per-say, but I guess that it was just a lot of things built up over time. I was missing my ex, I hurt my ankle over the weekend, I just found out that my cousins girlfriend doesn't want me to sing for their wedding, I messed up my computer by deleting some vital software, and I had also been listening to depressing music all day and basically I was just feeling super shitty.

Further Back Back-Story

Anyways, prior to yesterday, my best friend and I had been looking for a way to get weed. We live in a small town, so we were just trying to think of as many potheads as we could to see if we could somehow get access to a joint or two. One of my other friends (I've mentioned him in the blog before) does weed very openly, but he moved away a few weeks ago. Anyhow, my best friend wanted to make sure that it was okay with her boyfriend that she did weed, and apparently he's very against it. (And even after a long debate with him, I'm still not entirely sure why!) So she said she wasn't going to do it with me, and at this point I was just feeling very down on myself and just wanted weed! But I still had the issue that I didn't know who to get it from!

What Happened Yesterday

Instead, I went for a long walk (As suggested by my best-friend's boyfriend) On the walk, I listened to even more depressing music (Taylor Swift, Ed Sheeran, and all that other mellow soft acoustic stuff) and I just started breaking down. I started remembering all of the things that my ex and I did together, and I just started wishing that we could have stayed together. On top of all this, I had all these other previously mentioned issues. Needless to stay, I probably cried on 4 different occasions yesterday.

Today

And now you're probably wondering why I'm even writing about this right now. Well, I just wanted to say that I am feeling better today. 

The point of this post isn't to talk anyone out of doing drugs or anything like that. The point of this post was just to tell you that no matter how hard it may seem, you can always get through it. I was at a low point in my life yesterday, and I may not get to a really high point for a while, but I'll get through it. 

Honestly, I still want weed. But I don't want it for the reasons that I wanted it yesterday. I don't want to start using it to feel better, or to feel less stressed. I just want it to be for fun, just like I would use alcohol. I think that as soon as I start using weed as a stress reliever, I will start to rely on it, and that wouldn't be good.

(By the way, although most of you probably know this, weed is not physically addicting, but it can by psychologically addicting. Just be careful and don't use it for the wrong reasons!)

Drugs

A lot of drugs are physically addicting, and I know that I want to lead a better life than that. I don't want to be just another statistic, I want to make a life and a name for myself.

So just in case any of you readers are concerned, I'm not going to start shooting up heroin or anything like that.

But I've done my research on weed, and I still don't discourage the idea.

However, I want it to be my recreational weed, not my stress-reliever weed.

Life & 4.0

I live in Canada, so we don't measure grades in "grade point averages"

Nevertheless, I started to tell people that I had a 4.0 GPA. (Which, for those who don't know, is the highest grade point average you can have, and consists of your overall average being above 90%)

Anyways, it really caught on, and now everyone calls me that.

And I love it.

Life & Your Body Is A Wonderland

I'm sure you are all familiar with the song "Your Body Is A Wonderland" by John Mayer (unless you happen to be living under a rock), but a song that you may not be so familiar with is the song "When The Right One Comes Along" by The Striking Matches.

I love this song.

Speaking of love, my cousin is apparently getting married in June. Now, readers, I know that you don't know him or his girlfriend, but I think that he's making a mistake. It's hard to say, because I don't really know either one of them, and they have a child together, but I just don't think that it's meant to be.

I like to believe in concepts such as "fate" and "destiny", and I'm pretty sure I'm destined to marry a hot Australian man. (Although I wouldn't be against other options.)

I don't know exactly why I called this post what I called it, mostly because I was listening to that song at the time, I guess. Now I'm listening to an Indian song called "Rab Kare"
To ANYONE that is even REMOTELY interested in Indian culture, check that one out.
I'm considering watching the movie: Mujhse Shaadi Karogi

In English, that's "Will You Marry Me?", and it's the movie that the song 'Rab Kare' comes from.

Anyways, enough about Indian culture.

I was considering being a doctor when I grow up. Not only is it an AMAZING salary, but biology is a topic that I find to be interesting.

I don't know how much I will enjoy it though. The stress level of most doctors is far beyond the stress level of other well-paying careers, such as dentistry. My best friend wants to be a dentist, and of course, I had to one up her.

Life & Culture

Lately, I've fallen in love with Indian culture.


















I just love everything about. I love the dancing, the traditions, the music, the language, the scenery, etc.

Now, I have never been to it, but my English teacher constantly talks about his trip there and what a great experience it was. Up until now, I haven't listened.

But now I definitely want to go there. I still want to go to Australia and Italy, of course, but I also want to go to the foreign places with new experiences, like India, Brazil, China, etc.

Anyways, that was my inspiration to blog today, because I wanted to encourage people to do their own research on India.

The only thing I worry about is the safety. Of course, I live in Canada, so I take some things (such as respect for women) for granted. I know that respect for women is not something that all countries believe in, and with the latest stories about India, I just feel like I would want to wait until I could go with someone.

Maybe one day, after I've finished getting a post-secondary education, I will travel to places like India. Man, I would love that so much. I need to experience something besides my own country.

I've been to Mexico, but only just past the border. It was very different than what I'm used to though. In Canada I just accept the prices that are given, but in other countries they haggle. I would also like to break out of eating the typical Canadian/American foods, like cheeseburgers and pizza.

And besides all that, I would love to do some sight-seeing.

My mom told me that our family will be going to B.C. this summer, which is exciting, but not as exciting as another country would be.

Life And Jobs

On Friday, I got fired from my job.

For those of you that haven't faithfully read my blog, I will give you a quick refresher. I (used to) work at a restaurant as a waitress. 

I don't want to go into too much detail about it, but basically I had a co-worker (One of the cooks) that I didn't exactly get along with, and there was one night where I guess I just pushed him over the edge, and now I no longer have a job. 

Anyways, I'm not going to spend too much time complaining about what happened, because I don't feel like going into a lot of detail with it. But now I have to search for a new job in a small town. 

To anyone that has read any of my previous posts, perhaps you've gotten the hint that I have amazing confidence, so I'm not too worried about finding a new job. I am planning to go out and hand out my resume in the next week or so. 

I haven't written on this as much as I'd like to, so I may do 1-2 more posts today. 

Life and Crime

I was recently reading through some of my previous blog posts, and I read one where I wrote "This blog is beginning to become an every day thing."
Yeah, that is 100% not true, because "Life and Girls" and this post were my first posts in March, and March is nearly over.
Anyhow, I have lots of homework to do and I probably shouldn't even be on the computer right now, but I needed to write about some recent stuff and this seemed like the best place to do it.

The first thing I want to get off my mind is that a friend of mine recently moved away from my school, and, up until today, I didn't even know where he was. Today I just found out that he moved to Hobbema, Alberta, which apparently is very well known for high crime rates. 
Needless to say, that scared me a little bit.

The second thing I wanted to get off my mind was that I've been feeling slightly less nostalgic than yesterday, but I still feel a slight yearning for the past.

Life And Girls

As you may have read, I recently did a blog post called "Life And Boys". Normally, I wouldn't have even thought to do a post like this, however, because of recent events, I feel that this post is not only appropriate but necessary.

Girls can be mean, in fact, a lot of girls are just downright mean girls. There wouldn't be a whole movie about it if it wasn't true. 

Today I read one of my old best friend's blogs. She posted it on Facebook, and I sat here for a good half hour, just scrolling through every post and reading what she had to say. She's a dedicated, hardcore Christian who moved back to B.C. at the end of seventh grade. She came to Alberta in 6th grade because her dad was studying at a Bible college in my town. And in those two years, we did everything together. Some of my best memories with her were as simply as dancing in the rain and then coming inside and playing Super Smash Brothers with her. And I was always Kurby.

It's been a long time since those days, and we've both gone our separate ways now. We still talk, but it's never the same as it used to be. Sometimes I wish that I could go back, just for a day, and remember what it was like to live in a time when drama was simple. When life was simple.

I'm a junior now, in high school and I still live in Alberta. People have come and gone from my life just as seasons change throughout the year, but I've remained here, in this small little town, finding comfort with the people that have been here the longest. It's hard to get attached to someone to just have them move away, like my best friends have over the years.

Anyways, I didn't create this post just to rant about the past and make readers feel nostalgic. I wrote this post because I got inspired by this old friend of mine, who still, after all of these years, manages to make me smile. She was always an inspiration to me. She always encouraged me to do my best and be my best, and I am so thankful that I got to know her, even if it was only for a short period of time.

The other issue that has been on my mind today was a recent fight with one of my other best friends. I first met her in eighth grade (after transferring schools) and we have been close ever since. That is, up until she started dating her current boyfriend. Time has passed and our differences have pulled us apart. A recent fight made me consider who my real friends are in life. And to that question, I have no real answer. I could name a few people that have always been there for me, but I don't know if they always will be. If there's anything that time has taught me it's that people are temporary. Some are in your life longer than others, but everyone will fade away eventually. Next year I'll graduate and go off to University, and I'll make new friends and have new experiences. And everyone here will fade away.

I hope that I can stay close with the people that I've met over the years, but I'm not going to expect it. I've learned that people change, they move away and life goes on. No matter what, life goes on. 

Life & Boys

Alright, so I'm here today to write about boys. Of course it will be like all of my other posts, where I won't just talk about boys and I'll talk about other stuff too. But for today my focus is males.

Anyways, I've been single for approximately 10 months. And in these 10 months I haven't really had a crush. That is, I haven't like any male enough to pursue him.

I'm just waiting for the right one to come along, that's all.

And, especially lately, the boys that I know have been exceptionally immature, chauvinistic and arrogant, making me think that perhaps 17 is not the perfect age to pursue a guy. At least, not right now 17. Maybe in a few months when I've fallen head over heels for some tall, dark stranger 17. Maybe then.

17 is a beautiful age. So beautiful, in fact, that there's a magazine named after it. You're still young, still in high school, still living the life, you hold the maturity that 16 didn't, however you don't hold the responsibility that 18 does. It's a nice age to be.

Life & Basketball

This blog is turning into an everyday thing. I know that it's incredibly quick for me to say that, but for the past  3 days I've been writing here like there's no tomorrow. Writing, and enjoying writing.

Anyways, even though this post is titled Life And Basketball, to be completely honest I probably won't talk a lot about basketball. The only reason I felt like I should title this entry that is because a) I just got back from a basketball game (Which we won, in case you were wondering) and b) I had no better ideas to title it.

I have to admit that my life has subtly changed these past few months. I'm not sure exactly why, but I'm thinking it's possibly due to the fact that I'm growing older, and I'm finally starting to realize that. I need to grow up, stop backstabbing and get my life in order. Another reason why my life has changed is because my ex-boyfriend changed me drastically. He told me that I was beautiful, and yet there was so much wrong with us. When we were dating I used to hate country music, and now it's all I listen to.

Anyways, I'm not here to rant about my relationship, because hell, I do enough of that on figment. I'm over it, it was almost a year ago (in April) since we broke up, and it's time to  move on. It's just hard to move on when there's no one to move on to. But that doesn't bother me much.

"And I miss you, without you I just don't fit in...
I know we're through, but I wish that we could try it again."
-Hunter Hayes. <3

Life & Politics

Well, here I am with some free time at my computer. Blogging, here I come.

I never really know what to write on these things. On Figment my work is fiction 80% of the time, but usually when one blogs they don't write about fantasy things, they write about their life. So I guess this is the best I can do. 

I worked today, I'm a waitress at a restaurant. It's a great job, and I enjoy working, but sometimes I just think there's gotta be more than this. There has got to be more to life then working a dead-end job at a restaurant. I want to travel the world, discover new things, places, meet new people. I know that some people are satisfied to work a 9-5 job, get married and settle down with kids, but I want so much more than that. 

Perhaps my expectations of life are unrealistic, but I just want to live life to the fullest, all the time. 

I'm not afraid of hard work. I know some people say that they hate school, they hate their job, they don't want to work but personally I enjoy school. I love to learn new things. Sure, sometimes it gets a little boring but without it society would be dumber than it already is. (Ouch!) Perhaps I am just a rare person, but I think that people should always be challenged in their jobs, their schoolwork and their goals. 

I want my job to be a challenge. Something that requires thinking instead of a job where I can just put my mind on autopilot. I love to argue, so I think that being a politician would suit me. 

Introduction

Welcome To The Blog

Greetings to anyone who has stumbled across this blog. As an avid writer on sites like Figment, English class and my journal, I have decided that perhaps I should start a blog. After all, blogs are 'the cool thing to do nowadays' right? And what better what to display all of thoughts than to post it on the web for all to see? 

Anyways, there is really no purpose to this blog. No strong thoughts that I need to get out or anything like that, I just wanted to write. I called this blog "figmentlife" because, as I pointed out before, I am an avid writer on Figment.com. For anyone who doesn't have an account on that site I would strongly recommend it. However, figment is more about posting fiction/fantasy stories than blogging, which brings me here. 

A Little About Me

I am a seventeen year old girl from Alberta, Canada, and I am trying to keep my life on track. I love to read and write, I play basketball and the piano. I also love to debate. Call me weird if you will, but I get a certain satisfaction when I can prove my point to other people. I am very strongly opinionated about certain topics, and I'm also outgoing enough to argue with anyone who decides to try to stand up against me.

I want to pursue a career in politics or sociology. I love the idea of politics, and I love the idea of making a difference. I've had many people tell me that 'politics is boring' or 'your life is going to suck' but it doesn't bother me all that much. To each their own. 

My Posts

In conclusion, this blog will basically just be an overview of my life. I hope to write in it at least once a week, and just explain some of my thoughts and issues, as well as my achievements and goals. This blog is more for me than anyone else, but if you happen to stumble across it, I hope that you will enjoy reading it.