Life & The City

And what a week it has been! I went from chilling in my bedroom in my small town to heading to the city for basketball camp. In the course of 1 week I went to a Carly Rae Jepsen concert, tubing on a lake, swimming, shopping (bought a new dress!), hot tubbing and of course playing basketball. Today is my last day in the city and I have mixed feelings about going back to my small town. On the one hand, I miss my friends but on the other hand, there's always so much to do in the city!

I definitely miss my computer. I mean, make fun all you want, but that's something that I could not go without for very long. I've managed a week - but then again I have my iPhone, so it doesn't really count.

In about 4-5 days I'll be heading to B.C. for some great times as a family trip with my cousins. I'm super pumped for that :) hopefully we'll see some great sights!

I'll probably blog more when I'm not typing on this stupid, tiny iPhone keyboard. Peace out!

#FigmentCovers

Sorry guys, I needed a place to put all of my stuff for figment. 

Life & Rejection

Wow, from hands-on experience with rejection all I can say is that it sucks.

This is the third major rejection I've experienced this year. I know I shouldn't be making a big deal about it, I don't even know why I am... but it hurts. As many of you know, I got fired from my first job ever in April. If that wasn't enough, the talk with my ex didn't go over as planned and no there is no chance that anything will ever happen. And now... REJECTED from something I applied to a few months ago...

Why? I wish I knew, honestly. I hate those fucking phone calls. Those, "We're sorry, you didn't make it, but we encourage you to blah, blah blah."

Fucking, bloody hell. Why don't I have more control over this?

I wish I could just start over, sometimes. Or go back and undo some of the stupid things I've done. I know I shouldn't regrets, but, hell, I do, and I can't help them.

"One day it's here and then it's gone,
How are you still holding on?"
-One Day, Kodaline

And then, to make it even worse, my mom comes in my room and asks if everything is okay. I hate fucking crying in front of people. I feel like an idiot every time it happens. I know some people are just like, whatever, you cry, you get on with life. But fuck. I'm the only person that I can cry in front of without feeling like a complete idiot. And even when I cry I'm just thinking... stop, you're better than this. Stop crying. It's not even that big of a deal. Why are you crying?

It just sucks.

Life & How To Be A Heartbreaker

Rule number 1,
Is that you gotta have fun
But baby when you're done
You gotta be the first to run

Rule number 2,
Just don't get attached to
Somebody you could lose
So l-let me tell you

Okay, but seriously, that song is catchy.

ANYWAY, I've been working on my novel, and I've hit the 20,000 mark. (which is around 2 hours to read) so that's awesome! :)

I'm excited to write more and develop it more.

Life & Moving On

So we did end up talking last night, and I just have 2 words.

Fuck him.

I know lately I've been getting a little mushy-gushy with all this I-want-him-back bullshit, but I'm done with it. He's officially deleted from my phone, and I don't want to go into details about it, but I am proud to say that I finally told him off. 

Anyway, I'm excited to head off to basketball camp tomorrow with one of my friends. That'll be fun :) I don't have a lot to talk about today, so I guess I'll write more some other time. 

Life & Summer II

It's only been summer for a few days, and already I feel like I'm bored. I don't mean to sound ungrateful, because really, I've been waiting for these 2 months during the whole school year. It's just that... without school, I haven't got any people to see, or any places to go, or... anything to do.

Seriously. I've watched 4 movies in the past 2 days. Those include The Notebook, Aladdin, The Little Mermaid and Annie. Yeah, talk about a blast from the past.

In addition, I've still been waiting for that text from my ex that's probably never going to come. Yeah, he never was one for keeping promises or having feelings for that matter. I feel bad for saying that, because I'm the one that keeps talking to him in desperation, but it's true. I wish moving on was easy. I wish I was one of those girls that could just say 'fuck it' and move on. I thought I was, but unfortunately, I'm not. And now I find myself wishing that I could spend the summer with him. Just him and I and the summer. 

Sigh...

Sometimes I read over all these posts and just discover how much I've changed in so little time. I guess that's what it means to grow up. I never thought it would happen so fast. I mean, I'm still young, but I feel old. I feel like I've seen everything there is to see sometimes.

Nah, that isn't true. I know there's a lot I don't know and a lot of things to see. I just wish I could see them now! Maybe I should have taken advantage of those class trips, so I could go see the world instead of staying in the confines of this little town.

Oh, well.

Life & Summer

Okay, I know I say this all the time but this time it's actually true. Don't get mad, but I've kind of been forgetting to write here.

Anyway, it's finally summer!!! (It actually has been for a couple of days now, but that's besides the point) I'm not exactly 'happy' with how all of my marks turned out, but I figure there's always next year.

Yesterday, I went to a huge party for my class. I'm actually kind of tired right now because I stayed up until 5:00A.M. at that party. Yes, I know, not like me at all, right?

Everyone else was in bed and I was still up with 4 other people, just sitting around the campfire talking. 

Good times, good times.

So here I am today, writing away on this old computer that HATES me. I'm happy though, we went to West Edmonton Mall and I picked up a scrapbook for my best friend, that I'll be making throughout the summer, as well as some new clothes! :) 

So far, it's been an eventful summer. I mean, it's only Friday, and we have our last exam on Tuesday, so really it's not that 'eventful,' per-say, given that it hasn't even been summer for very long.

Ah, well.

I've already done a few things on my bucket list :) I'll do an updated progress report on that probably sometime in July.

And, for those who were wondering, my novel is coming along! I haven't worked on it as much lately as I would like to, BUT I will be working on it throughout the summer. So far it's about an hour to read, which I'm actually quite proud of.

Andddddd I should probably get my license. 

**Side Note** Am I the only one who can't STAND when people spell words incorrectly or make stupid errors? I mean, even on the internet, man. Bitches be like "Your the best." And in my head I'm thinking, You're. You're the best. You are. Not your. You're. 

I can't be the only one.

Or even when people mix up the words 'then' and 'than.' I mean, really, people? How hard is it to learn the difference? I actually saw a funny post the other day that said, "I'd rather have my son be gay then a serial killer." (No, it wasn't a joke.) And that, people, is why you need to learn the difference.

I was actually thinking maybe I should just chill today. Watch the notebook, clean my room, have a jolly good time.

I'll be back soon to write more. :)