Life & Sundays

Today is a perfect Sunday day. The sun is shining, I had a great breakfast & now I'm feeling just great. I will be going to drop in basketball a bit later today, but for now I figure I may as well get some things done. I have an essay that's due for English, a Biology test to study for (Tuesday) and a short story (which doesn't have a due date yet, but I love to write, so I may work on it anyways)

I don't have a whole lot to write about today, basically it's just the normal. I just finished reading a book, House Of Reckoning, By John Saul.

This isn't my favorite John Saul novel, but it's definitely one that you should check out if you want a quick read. I just started reading it yesterday, and I just finished.

Out of all the John Saul books that I've ever read, I would have to say that my favorite (so far) is Perfect Nightmare. That being said, I  haven't read a whole lot of John Saul, as I've been a little too busy with my English novels to read for fun lately, but I do really enjoy John Saul's style of writing. I would also like to read some of my Stephen King novels, that have been sitting on my bookshelf, untouched for ages. Maybe I'll start one of those tonight.

Life & Bollywood

Now, I know what you're thinking, Life & Bollywood? Really, how much crazier can I get?
Well, to anyone that is reading this, I just watched an entire movie in Hindi. That's right, an entire movie where I didn't understand a single word. Instead, I just read the subtitles.
It was a great movie, by the way, and to anyone who has never seen a Bollywood movie, I would strongly recommend it. I feel like I've gained so much culture, just from watching two and a half hours of a movie that was made in India.

The movie is called "Mujhse Shaadi Karoge", which translates in English to "Will You Marry Me?"

And despite that the movie wasn't in my language, I thoroughly enjoyed it. (There's a surprise ending, beware!) If you ever have two and a half hours to kill, I would suggest watching it. 

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Anyways, readers, that movie isn't the only thing I have to talk about, but I just wanted to let you know how awesome it was before I continue on with how my day has been going.

I have started writing that short story that my English teacher assigned, and I'm thinking of making it a horror story. I'm not going to reveal too much about it yet, but I'll definitely post a link when it's finished.

If you guys want to see my other short story that I wrote a few months ago for English, just leave a comment and I'll post a link. (It's about a girl who lives on a 'Hitler' island, where everyone must have blonde hair and blue eyes, and everyone must be relatively the same.) I'd love to show it to you guys and get some feedback, so just let me know!

Life & Pageviews

Well, it turns out that lately I've actually been getting some page views! I have 70 overall, and 47 in the past month. Thank you viewers :)

If you are viewing this, feel free to leave a comment if you want me to write about a certain topic or if you have any thoughts on my posts. Good or bad, I'd like to hear anything you guys have to say!

Anyways, I came onto this blog today not entirely sure what to write about, so, for the most part, I am making this up as I go along.

We got assigned another short story for English, which I am super excited to write! (I love writing, for those of you who didn't get the memo)

And, another awesome thing... the weather outside has actually been decent. Now I know what you're thinking. Um aren't you from Canada? Isn't is supposed to ... like ... snow all year 'round there?

Well yeah, it pretty much does. I mean we get about 6-8 cold months every year. (This year it was October- April) And yeah, sometimes it sucks. (In fact, most of the time it sucks.)

But cold weather is really what makes the warm weather so beautiful.

I've been trying to start some sort of health plan now that the weather is actually warm. I was thinking about maybe going for a walk/run today, but I'm not entirely sure. I also need to start working out again, I'd love to get back into a routine.

Leave comments, and keep coming back! I write at least once a week!

Life & Suicide

I never understood how people could take their own lives. Their lives may be hard, but is there really something that could happen that could make a person give up living?

           

A friend of mine committed suicide. I wish that I could say that we were best friends, but we weren't  I wish that I could say that we were closer before she passed away, but all that I really remember from that time is that we never really talked. I wish that we would have.

I've written about her before, not on this blog, but I have. Today, new feelings arose. I was going through my emails. I’m 99% sure that I have slight OCD, so all my emails are arranged alphabetically into folders of the name of the person who sent them. The only emails that I delete are junk mail emails. I don’t think I've ever deleted an email from a person that I know.

Anyways, I was reading through emails and I came across some from this friend. She passed away last October, and up until today I hadn't thought about her in a while. The emails were casual, we talked about boys and having a sleepover, and I just broke down. There are tears streaming down my face as I write this.

           

Blogging helps me to find a sense of reality. I know that she’s gone now, and I can’t bring her back, no matter how much I want to. But I miss her so much.

Life & School

Normally I don't share very many secrets on the internet, as it's very risky, but this time I'm going to make an exception.
As you guys know, I love the write. I write on sites, I blog, I write in English, I write for fun. I've been writing for as long as I can remember, so writing comes very easily to me. Of course, I am always new things about writing, and I'm sure that I will be for the rest of my life. However, I finally feel as though I am at a point in my life where my writing is getting pretty damn near where I want it to be.
Anyways, a few weeks ago, we got assigned to write a short story in English. Of course, I finished mine right away and handed it in. But my teacher isn't really very strict on the deadlines, so a lot of my classmates didn't finish. After I handed mine in, one of my classmates asked me to help me out with his story.
Well, one thing lead to another and eventually he offered to pay me to write his story. (First writing gig ever!) And... I took the offer.

I just finished his story today, and I'm actually pretty proud of it. He said that he liked it, and I get a little bit of a money bonus if the mark of the story is over 80. (Which I think it will be)

Now I'm not trying to share this to brag or anything like that, but it was something that I just decided to post today.

By the way, to anyone who reads this blog regularly, I've been feeling way better these days. I still want weed, but I'm trying to control that urge. At least for now.

& Tomorrow is Friday!

Life & Drugs

Back-Story

So before I go really deep into the whole drugs thing, I just want to give you readers a little bit of a back-story as to why I'm writing about drugs.

Let me just start off by saying that I am pro-marijuana legalization. I think that marijuana would help the economy, and that it isn't as bad for you as some of the other (legal) drugs out there -like alcohol!

Anyways, yesterday was a really hard day for me. I'm not sure what made exactly made it hard per-say, but I guess that it was just a lot of things built up over time. I was missing my ex, I hurt my ankle over the weekend, I just found out that my cousins girlfriend doesn't want me to sing for their wedding, I messed up my computer by deleting some vital software, and I had also been listening to depressing music all day and basically I was just feeling super shitty.

Further Back Back-Story

Anyways, prior to yesterday, my best friend and I had been looking for a way to get weed. We live in a small town, so we were just trying to think of as many potheads as we could to see if we could somehow get access to a joint or two. One of my other friends (I've mentioned him in the blog before) does weed very openly, but he moved away a few weeks ago. Anyhow, my best friend wanted to make sure that it was okay with her boyfriend that she did weed, and apparently he's very against it. (And even after a long debate with him, I'm still not entirely sure why!) So she said she wasn't going to do it with me, and at this point I was just feeling very down on myself and just wanted weed! But I still had the issue that I didn't know who to get it from!

What Happened Yesterday

Instead, I went for a long walk (As suggested by my best-friend's boyfriend) On the walk, I listened to even more depressing music (Taylor Swift, Ed Sheeran, and all that other mellow soft acoustic stuff) and I just started breaking down. I started remembering all of the things that my ex and I did together, and I just started wishing that we could have stayed together. On top of all this, I had all these other previously mentioned issues. Needless to stay, I probably cried on 4 different occasions yesterday.

Today

And now you're probably wondering why I'm even writing about this right now. Well, I just wanted to say that I am feeling better today. 

The point of this post isn't to talk anyone out of doing drugs or anything like that. The point of this post was just to tell you that no matter how hard it may seem, you can always get through it. I was at a low point in my life yesterday, and I may not get to a really high point for a while, but I'll get through it. 

Honestly, I still want weed. But I don't want it for the reasons that I wanted it yesterday. I don't want to start using it to feel better, or to feel less stressed. I just want it to be for fun, just like I would use alcohol. I think that as soon as I start using weed as a stress reliever, I will start to rely on it, and that wouldn't be good.

(By the way, although most of you probably know this, weed is not physically addicting, but it can by psychologically addicting. Just be careful and don't use it for the wrong reasons!)

Drugs

A lot of drugs are physically addicting, and I know that I want to lead a better life than that. I don't want to be just another statistic, I want to make a life and a name for myself.

So just in case any of you readers are concerned, I'm not going to start shooting up heroin or anything like that.

But I've done my research on weed, and I still don't discourage the idea.

However, I want it to be my recreational weed, not my stress-reliever weed.

Life & 4.0

I live in Canada, so we don't measure grades in "grade point averages"

Nevertheless, I started to tell people that I had a 4.0 GPA. (Which, for those who don't know, is the highest grade point average you can have, and consists of your overall average being above 90%)

Anyways, it really caught on, and now everyone calls me that.

And I love it.