Life & Ex-Boyfriends

Now, I know that I've already done a post on "Life & Boys" but this one is different. This one focuses specifically on ex-boyfriends.

After my ex and I broke up last year, I made a list of things that I didn't like about him/our relationship. Sounds harsh, I know, but that's how I dealt with my pain at the time. I tried to remember the bad things about my relationship, and focus on those, because I knew that if I remembered our relationship how it actually was, I would have came crawling back within a week. 

Now, I know what you're thinking. 'Wow... just another girl who is still in love with the idea of her ex-boyfriend.' And yes, I'll admit that he was a great guy, and our relationship was cute. But I'm not just sewn up on the idea of him, I'm sewn up on him.

This may sound like a change from everything that you've heard about going back to your ex's, but I think that I'm going to try it. I want him back, there's no denying that. We didn't break up for any specific reason, we just thought at the time that things weren't really going anywhere. I don't know why, but we ended it a little too soon.

Anyways, that's all I've been thinking about for the past week, and believe me, I've had my share of crying over it. I miss him like hell. But we've actually been talking the past couple of days, which has made me a lot happier. I want to see him again, and talk things through, and see where things go from there. 

Life & Time Management

I just realized that I haven't written in this blog since Sunday. Sorry guys, I thought that writing here was a daily habit by now, but I guess not. I guess the real reason that I haven't written in a while is just because I've been busy with a lot of stuff. Between homework, sports and guys, it gets a little difficult to find time to blog sometimes.

I think that blogging here helps me to relieve stress, so I enjoy doing it, but sometimes I just forget. Right now, I'm in the middle of writing that short story for English that I mentioned earlier, and I just remembered that I haven't blogged for a couple days, which brings me here.

There have been a couple things are new in my life. First, two of my best friends are dating (have been for a while), and they keep getting crap from everyone. I've been trying to help them sort it out with some of my other friends, and today, it was finally starting to look up.

The other new thing is that I've been talking to my ex-boyfriend lately. I don't want to reveal too much right now, because I don't want to get my hopes up by writing down everything that I've been thinking lately, but there's a possibility that we might actually be able to be friends. But more on that later.

I guess I really don't have a whole lot to talk about today. Whenever I blog, I always feel like I have a lot to talk about, but then I get here and actually start writing and then I realize that I actually don't have a lot to write about.

I'm close to getting a new job. The manager talked to me yesterday and said she'd call me back. She hasn't yet, but I've got my fingers crossed.

Life & Sundays

Today is a perfect Sunday day. The sun is shining, I had a great breakfast & now I'm feeling just great. I will be going to drop in basketball a bit later today, but for now I figure I may as well get some things done. I have an essay that's due for English, a Biology test to study for (Tuesday) and a short story (which doesn't have a due date yet, but I love to write, so I may work on it anyways)

I don't have a whole lot to write about today, basically it's just the normal. I just finished reading a book, House Of Reckoning, By John Saul.

This isn't my favorite John Saul novel, but it's definitely one that you should check out if you want a quick read. I just started reading it yesterday, and I just finished.

Out of all the John Saul books that I've ever read, I would have to say that my favorite (so far) is Perfect Nightmare. That being said, I  haven't read a whole lot of John Saul, as I've been a little too busy with my English novels to read for fun lately, but I do really enjoy John Saul's style of writing. I would also like to read some of my Stephen King novels, that have been sitting on my bookshelf, untouched for ages. Maybe I'll start one of those tonight.

Life & Bollywood

Now, I know what you're thinking, Life & Bollywood? Really, how much crazier can I get?
Well, to anyone that is reading this, I just watched an entire movie in Hindi. That's right, an entire movie where I didn't understand a single word. Instead, I just read the subtitles.
It was a great movie, by the way, and to anyone who has never seen a Bollywood movie, I would strongly recommend it. I feel like I've gained so much culture, just from watching two and a half hours of a movie that was made in India.

The movie is called "Mujhse Shaadi Karoge", which translates in English to "Will You Marry Me?"

And despite that the movie wasn't in my language, I thoroughly enjoyed it. (There's a surprise ending, beware!) If you ever have two and a half hours to kill, I would suggest watching it. 

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Anyways, readers, that movie isn't the only thing I have to talk about, but I just wanted to let you know how awesome it was before I continue on with how my day has been going.

I have started writing that short story that my English teacher assigned, and I'm thinking of making it a horror story. I'm not going to reveal too much about it yet, but I'll definitely post a link when it's finished.

If you guys want to see my other short story that I wrote a few months ago for English, just leave a comment and I'll post a link. (It's about a girl who lives on a 'Hitler' island, where everyone must have blonde hair and blue eyes, and everyone must be relatively the same.) I'd love to show it to you guys and get some feedback, so just let me know!

Life & Pageviews

Well, it turns out that lately I've actually been getting some page views! I have 70 overall, and 47 in the past month. Thank you viewers :)

If you are viewing this, feel free to leave a comment if you want me to write about a certain topic or if you have any thoughts on my posts. Good or bad, I'd like to hear anything you guys have to say!

Anyways, I came onto this blog today not entirely sure what to write about, so, for the most part, I am making this up as I go along.

We got assigned another short story for English, which I am super excited to write! (I love writing, for those of you who didn't get the memo)

And, another awesome thing... the weather outside has actually been decent. Now I know what you're thinking. Um aren't you from Canada? Isn't is supposed to ... like ... snow all year 'round there?

Well yeah, it pretty much does. I mean we get about 6-8 cold months every year. (This year it was October- April) And yeah, sometimes it sucks. (In fact, most of the time it sucks.)

But cold weather is really what makes the warm weather so beautiful.

I've been trying to start some sort of health plan now that the weather is actually warm. I was thinking about maybe going for a walk/run today, but I'm not entirely sure. I also need to start working out again, I'd love to get back into a routine.

Leave comments, and keep coming back! I write at least once a week!

Life & Suicide

I never understood how people could take their own lives. Their lives may be hard, but is there really something that could happen that could make a person give up living?

           

A friend of mine committed suicide. I wish that I could say that we were best friends, but we weren't  I wish that I could say that we were closer before she passed away, but all that I really remember from that time is that we never really talked. I wish that we would have.

I've written about her before, not on this blog, but I have. Today, new feelings arose. I was going through my emails. I’m 99% sure that I have slight OCD, so all my emails are arranged alphabetically into folders of the name of the person who sent them. The only emails that I delete are junk mail emails. I don’t think I've ever deleted an email from a person that I know.

Anyways, I was reading through emails and I came across some from this friend. She passed away last October, and up until today I hadn't thought about her in a while. The emails were casual, we talked about boys and having a sleepover, and I just broke down. There are tears streaming down my face as I write this.

           

Blogging helps me to find a sense of reality. I know that she’s gone now, and I can’t bring her back, no matter how much I want to. But I miss her so much.

Life & School

Normally I don't share very many secrets on the internet, as it's very risky, but this time I'm going to make an exception.
As you guys know, I love the write. I write on sites, I blog, I write in English, I write for fun. I've been writing for as long as I can remember, so writing comes very easily to me. Of course, I am always new things about writing, and I'm sure that I will be for the rest of my life. However, I finally feel as though I am at a point in my life where my writing is getting pretty damn near where I want it to be.
Anyways, a few weeks ago, we got assigned to write a short story in English. Of course, I finished mine right away and handed it in. But my teacher isn't really very strict on the deadlines, so a lot of my classmates didn't finish. After I handed mine in, one of my classmates asked me to help me out with his story.
Well, one thing lead to another and eventually he offered to pay me to write his story. (First writing gig ever!) And... I took the offer.

I just finished his story today, and I'm actually pretty proud of it. He said that he liked it, and I get a little bit of a money bonus if the mark of the story is over 80. (Which I think it will be)

Now I'm not trying to share this to brag or anything like that, but it was something that I just decided to post today.

By the way, to anyone who reads this blog regularly, I've been feeling way better these days. I still want weed, but I'm trying to control that urge. At least for now.

& Tomorrow is Friday!